these few days a lot of thoughts had been coming to my mind. recently because of one incident make me realized where and what are the problem. the problem of course still lies with me. i can't overcome those fear which i had always been avoiding.
that incident really hurt me a lot and make me develop all these fear. seriously i dun hate that person but i can't make myself face him again. i dun have the courage and the face to face him. whenever i saw him, the feeling which he left on me came back and make my heart feel very pain. maybe he dun understand what i am going through had i bet he dun have to go through what i am going through. i can just be honest i dunno why i still cannot forget him and the hurt he left on me. almost one year had past but all these feeling are still there. scold me foolish or whatever. when i thinking back i realized that i am only trying to avoid it and not face it. i really dunno how to face it. what i really know about the person is that i no longer have feeling for him but the hurt is still there.
recently this word came up to me again. REGRET. this word came to me back then and because i dun wan to live with regret and i choose to make that decision and then it bring me nothing but those hurt. this time round i struggled for quite a long time but i still cannot overcome myself to make that decision. all my friends are trying to encourage me. but in the end i choose to give up. i know my life would be full of regret but i really cannot make myself do it. I'm sorry! because of that incident make me lose him as a friend and i can't afford to lose this friend again.
to all my friends who had encourage me that day. thanks! but I'm sorry. because the problems lies with me. maybe this is my decision. these few days my mind is about giving up. and i should just treat nothing had happen.
that incident really hurt me a lot and make me develop all these fear. seriously i dun hate that person but i can't make myself face him again. i dun have the courage and the face to face him. whenever i saw him, the feeling which he left on me came back and make my heart feel very pain. maybe he dun understand what i am going through had i bet he dun have to go through what i am going through. i can just be honest i dunno why i still cannot forget him and the hurt he left on me. almost one year had past but all these feeling are still there. scold me foolish or whatever. when i thinking back i realized that i am only trying to avoid it and not face it. i really dunno how to face it. what i really know about the person is that i no longer have feeling for him but the hurt is still there.
recently this word came up to me again. REGRET. this word came to me back then and because i dun wan to live with regret and i choose to make that decision and then it bring me nothing but those hurt. this time round i struggled for quite a long time but i still cannot overcome myself to make that decision. all my friends are trying to encourage me. but in the end i choose to give up. i know my life would be full of regret but i really cannot make myself do it. I'm sorry! because of that incident make me lose him as a friend and i can't afford to lose this friend again.
to all my friends who had encourage me that day. thanks! but I'm sorry. because the problems lies with me. maybe this is my decision. these few days my mind is about giving up. and i should just treat nothing had happen.
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